I don't know how this post will turn out. I just feel like there are a lot of stuff going on inside my head and I need to have an outlet. I haven't written anything for a long time and the thoughts are just piling up already.
Thought #1: This morning I was taking a shower when I began talking to myself (like I always do). I have the tendency to push myself hard and have high expectations from myself. That's why I get anxious often. I want to get things done and on time, and I stress myself on thinking how to do that.
Right now, I am working at my dad's business again. It's been a year since I decided to leave the business, and now I'm back. Anyway, I don't have the time to explain why I ended up helping out here again. My concern is just to groom someone who could be like me to take care of the marketing side of the business, so I can have the liberty to do the things that I really want to do without being guilty of being selfish and leaving my family in the middle of a need.
Anyway, going back to this morning's shower, I decided to be easy on myself. It's only Thursday. I don't need to rise a marketing executive in just 4 days. Maybe I'm just getting a bit impatient. So.... whew... I'm calm...
Thought #2: Working in the business and the church is harder than I thought. Setting the priorities and managing my time? Ugh, I get sleepy at 8:30pm! I feel I'm getting tensed each day. Tomorrow I was told I need to go to the finance officer of the church to absorb the responsibility of our finance from her. (head spinning)
Let's see what happens. I think I'm just getting too overwhelmed with wanting to be good in everything I do that I end up not being able to perform well at all.